izzit the last day of October? lols.. think so? so fast worx.. 2 more months then jiu new year le.. haiz.. growing old.. lols.. hmm.. christmas is coming.. hmm.. wad i wan for christmas? lols.. hmm.. maybe a new yoyo? a break cue? lols.. or spend money on gifts and exchange with ppl? lols.. that sounds good.. lols..

hmm.. wel.. projects are really stressing now.. lols.. so fan.. hope to finish it asap.. dun really have anything to blog le lei.. lols..

i think that things are going fine.. and it will be better FOR ME if this continues.. i dun wan to get myself hurt.. maybe moving on is a good opition.. well.. yea.. coz i know damn sure i am not the one..

hihi all.. lols.. today went to IMM with dad and mum then went to eat at some japanese resturant.. then after that, went to buy new de display card.. coz the old one in my com got problem..

then now computer ok le lo.. but still a little bit laggy.. sian.. then plus wanna do project.. oh yea.. then my dad drive me to larvendar mrt there.. then i walk to Klassic to meet up with jia liang.. then we played pool lo.. yea.. i improve le.. lols.. little by little.. lols..

then after that, we walk to Farrer Park Mrt to take train to Vivo.. then today very sian lo.. so little ppl.. sian! then went to have dinner at BK.. while eating, yorae came lo.. then went to slack and play some yoyo..

after that like sian.. then jiu all go home le lo.. me and yorae went to lot 1 to slack for a while b4 going home..

hello everyone.. woke up 1 hour earlier coz i tot lesson start at 8.. but then is 9.. lols.. then decided to go online for a while lo.. then since got a bit of time then i decided to blog..

hmm.. later after sch going to play pool with steve.. he claimed that he can break clear -.-
really a not? i dunno lei..lols.. he always talk big nia.. always de.. then later see if he really can or not.. lols..

well.. maybe i shld stop hanging on to something.. seems very much... impossible.. maybe i shld just go other way instead of just keep tryin.. hmm.. yea.. maybe i shld.. but everytime i wan to make it stop, i'll get so weak and continue to hang on to that something.. man i really must be strong..

Back! lols.. back to update.. haiz.. wo hao fan ar!! stress sia.. got projects to do.. wad's more worst is that i'm the leader of one of the projects.. argh.. stress! then need to do some research thing. but then i damn tired now! sians..

hmm.. today after sch had lunch in sch then go home bathe then played pool with dad.. i lose.. lols.. 10-9.. lol.. actually got play with steve de.. but then he last min chu stun.. say got wad project la.. sian sia.. so fan now.. grrrr~!

plus! i dun get to drink for a month.. sigh man~ shit la.. growing up becomes so god damn hard la in life..

hmm.. back to blog.. feeling kind fine now.. only a bit stress abt projects lo.. esp the ETP de.. need to think of idea.. sian.. not easy worx.. nvm la.. just relax.. sch's fine.. everything is fine.. only looking forward to fri coz i wanna play pool.. lols.. then this time got new opponent.. steve.. lols.. nv play with him b4.. this fri after sch shld be going home first then bathe then go play with him..

sians.. so much conflict.. wish it can end.. but either one side need to stop.. hope it ends..

today woke up at 11 plus.. last nite slpt at ard 2 plus.. can't slp.. even thou i drank.. just can't slp lo.. then later go chat on phone a while then i go buy lunch lo.. chicken rice.. lols.. then go bathe..

after that, took mrt to yio chu kang.. then waited for the others to arrive.. then went to Chao Yang sch to take bus with the benefitors.. my benefitor name is Joel..

then went to Botanic garden lo.. there the weather damn hot.. then played and interacted with Joel and edwin de benefitors.. there also got perfomance.. but it wasn't that interesting anway..

then the day quickly ended lo.. then we all take bus back to Chao Yang lo.. then took mrt to dohby ghaut to have dinner.. then we all go home le lo.. i took 190 home..

tired day.. but hey, it wasn't as bad as i tot.. i tot will like very sian de.. but then not so bad lei.. lols..

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mum has discover the red wine in the fridge has disappeared and seen me drinking.. well.. she said i'm addicted.. well.. she also say if i can one month dun consume any alcohol.. then i say ok.. but so much pain.. need help.. dun know can one month dun touch any alcohol or not..

hmm.. nth really much to update.. got project le.. sian.. then today teacher in class kp.. lols.. sians..

-Hit my face so hard, make me wanna wake up-

feel so weird rite now.. like so empty.. so mood.. fuck.. feel like gettin drunk rite now.. but scare parents dun let nia.. dunno shld i secrectly drink now.. arghh fuck..

fuck up.. feel so xin ku now.. really wanna cry now.. i know that help is just ard me.. if i ask, i can be helped.. but.. it feels so ashamed for me to ask for help.. how am i going to face life next time in the future?

11th oct 2007

just woke up.. woken up by christopher.. he ask me wan to go town or not.. then i say ok.. then later meetin him lo.. then we meet at far east.. then go eat long john.. lols.. after that, he went to get his stuff.. then today i saw a lot of my outside friends lo.. when we were in X-craft, my classmate chris (SBS) de saw me.. then chat for a while he go le.. then while we continue to walk in far east, saw marcus.. he say he not coming down for yoyo on sat le.. coz his friend in boy's home..

and i found the belt i looking for de! XD the black belt with red jap words de.. very nice.. lols.. after that, went to heren.. then saw aik hwee.. lols.. borrowed his yoyo to play for a while lo.. chat with him a while then go le..

then after that, we got go chinatown walk walk.. then took 174 to JP.. then saw jul, jia jie and jian yong.. lols.. then me and chris went to have dinner at fish and co.. then after that, we walk walk in JP, and i saw Yan Ling.. totally today is OMG lo.. saw so many friends.. lols..

then we both go home le lo.. took 172 home..

12th oct 2007

today went to play pool with alex, jia liang and his friend, Eugene.. we went to Klassic to play.. there very ex lo.. but then the table good de.. then the ppl there i see hor, damn zhun de.. like all quite good de worx.. me and alex like a bit pai seh.. =X

then i took 67 from there go home le lo..

13th oct 2007

today went to meet alex at chinatown lo.. and meet jayson also.. coz alex need to go to some interview lo.. then me and jayson accompany him lo..

then we go yoyo le lo.. lols.. everything as per usual lo.. nth much to blog abt also.. lols.. yeah! tmr going to play pool with my dad and then later going to play with alex.. yeah! and i LOVE my new cue! lols..

man.. girls are so hard to understand.. hmmm.. i'm not saying u all or wad la.. but then u wan us guys to know wad u all are thinking.. so difficult.. need more understandin of u all.. just give me time! lols

9th oct 2007

today after work, went to find jen and xl.. we meet at habourfront mrt control station there.. i wanna buy a belt.. coz i got one belt spoil le.. scared pants will drop =X

hmm.. then cannot find the belt i wan.. but then i got buy a shirt i like a lot.. jen and xl say very nice for me.. :) black de.. hahas.. then after that, took mrt to boon lay then we go walk walk at JP..

after that, we go somewhere sit down and chit chat.. then after that, they pei wo wait for bus.. hehe.. thanks girls ;P then go home le lo

10th oct 2007

today last day of work! woohoo! so shuang.. lols.. wa lan eh.. but today bad day sia i swear!! fcuking bad luck..

today last day ma.. then i decided to tyry fried fish noodle.. then i eatin half way, saw something floating on the soup.. its a cockroach de leg-.- lucky i am those used to gross de stuff de.. =X

then went back to work.. sat down on my usual de stool.. then, the stool break! then i fell down onto the floor.. wa sian sia..

then after that, jen msg me, sayin, she dun wan to meet up le.. coz she bad mood.. then i say ok.. then after work, called xl ask her wan to go find jen come out talk talk she say ok.. then i take mrt to boon lay from aljunied lo.. then i reach chinese garden or lakeside there, she called me she dun wan to meet le=.= then i sian lo.. then i take 172 go home lo..

bad day-.-

NO ONE FUCKING OWNS YOU ANYTHING.. SO STOP BEHAVING LIKE THE BITCH THAT YOU ARE.. just such a short period of time, can see ur true colours le.. wtf.. regret knowing u la.. stay the fuck away from me! i dun know wad to say abt you la.. you are just simply not good la..

i just realised my blog one year le.. so fast worx.. lols.. hmm.. yea.. dun really have any updates.. oh yea.. today only work half day.. coz i got a bad headache.. then i decided to go home and rest lo..

then only work half a day then took train home lo.. bought sushi for lunch.. then eat le, bathe le then go slp le.. was woken up by cornia's call.. she called askin got job or not..

hmm.. yea.. didn't really get to practice yoyo and glowstick.. hahas.. got new tricks ar.. and keep practicing my 1 min.. can 1 throw le.. lols.. woots..

hmm.. as for glowsticking, not really any improvement... lols.. i wanna be like those ppl in youtube de.. so damn pro and nice the way they do it.. lols..

hmm.. dun really have anymore updates le.. hmm.. think i'm gettin a cue stick.. dunno shld i buy le then let my parents know or not.. os i tell them first then i go buy.. i scared i tell them le, then i go buy, they will say waste money only.. there got stick wad.. still wan to buy for wad.. lols.. i think i will explain to them abt personnal cue sticks then they will understand bahz.. hmm.. jia liang say both the cue and the bag can be bought for 100 dollars.. like cheap lei.. plus i now working.. got a bit of money to buy.. and PLUS i LOVE playing pool.. lols.. so i might consider abt buying one lo..

hmm.. think i shall end here le.. nth much to update.. sian.. tmr got work.. then still got 20,000 more springs to sort.. and hor, is sort one by one using a gage to measure see pass or reject or not.. damn sian lo.. lols.. i always hold on to the gage until i now use hp, my phone like so damn light la.. lols..

hmm.. currently, i'm feeling good la.. coz things are going my way la.. only for the work.. but thinkin of the pay, makes me feel better.. lols.. think now got.. 300 plus le bahs.. then minus away wad i own my mum.. left 286.. think can get cue la.. most likely can.. plus i got extra money for leisure.. food! pool! fun! XD lols..

and oh yea.. my boss got ask me to work till oct 14 there.. hahas.. i not sure wanna work or not lei.. if i work, i got more money of coz, but no time to play pool and go out with friends coz following week got sch le:( and if i dun work, i dun think i got enuff money.. lols