Some confessions----

Every night before i slp i wish i can turn back time.. wish i didnt treat u like how i did in the past..

i wanna go somewhere.. somewhere where i can disappear.. and while my parents can dont worry.. those ppl around me will also wont be worried..

i guess NS is the place/time for me to forget wad i shouldnt hold onto.. i look forward towards it..

For the first time i prayed that i will forget u.. it feels so weird.. but at the same time, pray that god will bless everyone esp my love ones that they will lead a happy, healthy lifestyle too..

oh well.. i think i should just move on..

Dreaming of her in my sleep is the cloest i can get to her...

Dreamt of her last night again....

I think its really the end alr.. I think there isnt a point being friends anymore when u dont bother reply my msgs..

hmmm.. I am tired.. u said u wanted time for urself, i didnt contact u for 2 weeks, after that i msg u, u dont wanna reply.. i dont really get it

Ya i know the cause of our r/s ending is more on my side.. i know i did mistakes.. but i really wanted to change.. at least i realise my mistake and tried changing.. for ur side, u said u got tired of being in a r/s.. well.. i dont know if that is the truth or excuse..

U just treated me like ur ex.. u didnt wanna ask for a break up cause ppl might think its ur fault if i were to commit suicide or hurt myself.. oh well.. then u just continue "be in the r/s" when u didnt msg me, said stuff u didnt mean.. gave lots of excuses when i ask u out.. u were just waitin for me to ask for it..

and u got it.. hmmm.. i have been keeping it in me for quite sometime.. i just have to rant.. its easy for u to say stuff like u're sorry and all.. because u are not the one that got hurt more..

i used to give u 101% effort.. when u said u wan something i try to get for u, when u have problems u can rant on me, sent u home everytime we go out even u stay at central and i stay at west.. i did a lot of handmade stuff for u.. i accept it when u say u cant let ur parents know abt us; we have to be low in our r/s.. i did a lot.. but i guess u got tired of being in a r/s.. and didnt really care anymore..

"Its never an assurance that when u give someone ur all, they will love u back" i so agree..

yes, again, i agree i became bad.. but i realise my mistake.. and i really wanted to change.. and i know damn well i got become better..

Thank you for ur love too.. thank you for being such a great gf.. thank you for everything u have given..

I hope u find ur happiness, i hope he will/can give u all the love u wan, i hope he really treat u like a princess.. and please dont be tricked by guys, dont go stray.. goodbye